I am an spiritual entertainer, telling Bedtime Stories for Grown-ups. What more does a spiritual entertainer do? He's the Mad Hatter to your Alice, the Trinity to your Neo, the Tala to your Moana (that's Vaiana if you're European). He's an agent provocateur of your mind when it's guarded by the demonstration marshals of modern society. What else a spiritual entertainer does? Gives talks and lectures, and some things that cannot be described, only experienced if you're lucky.
I had the first of a total of (at least) seven spiritual awakenings in 2017. I used to work as a digital communications strategist and was at the peak of my career, when suddenly I realized who I really am. What I really am meant to do in my next avatar: to be a spiritual entertainer. It took me a year almost to the day to kill my former avatar, and this is my first attempt to fly without a safety net.
Master Babuji once said to a person: "The best place to achieve the highest spiritual goal is right where we are. We need to fly with both wings, the spiritual wing and the material wing. If either wing is flapping too hard you only fly in a circle." It took 40 years of searching to find my spiritual wing, and if you want to support my material wing in my search for stories, become a contemporary mecenate in the quest to help more people realize what a wonderful world this could be, and how we could get there … it would give me hope. I would give me hope because I know that storytellers like me can change the world the world for the better. Countless others have proven it. Astrid Lindgren. Stephen King. Alan Watts. Christopher Nolan. Lin Manuel Miranda. RuPaul. Neil DeGrasse Tyson. These are just a few storytellers that have influenced my world, my reality in such a profound way that I would not be where I am today without their work. Stories can add magic to our world, make us believe in things that make us aim for the stars and land on the moon. And I have a magic ingredient: synchronicity. I've identified so many random, seemingly unrelated, events that for some reason had so much meaning that they etched themselves into my memory. When you feel a meaningfulness occur in the space between two such events it is called synchronicity. During this past year I've started to spot a pattern of synchronicities in my life. The first eight episodes of "Bedtime Stories for Grown-ups" are a result of such a pattern that I can trace back as far as 1999, when I thought long and hard before putting "I am an egoist" in my profile on a gay dating site, which led me to meeting Alexander Bard who in a way was the white rabbit to my Alice. I want to warn you: on one level, I'm not sane. I'm not sure about insanity either. I mean, I believe that I am not insane - but then insanity is an illusion, and when an illusion is good enough, it may as well be called reality.
There are stories within stories within stories. Stories about stories are sometimes even better than the original story. This is both a story and the story about that story all in one. I feel as if I'm creating this story as I'm telling it. If this web of synchronicities plays out with me succeeding in my new career, well … then there’s a story within that. It is possibly the greatest story ever told. Mind you, I'm partial, being the center of the universe and all. But then you can't possibly be located more than 18,000 kilometers or so from me, so on a cosmic scale, our centers of the universe are pretty much the same thing. My center is your center. If there are patterns to synchronicity, then maybe Jung was right that synchronicity is to metaphysics what causality is to physics. And if I could learn to spot the patterns, so can others … and then we can look for the patterns in those patterns. Have a peek at the algorithms on which reality runs. It’s like the Matrix, but not a movie. On the other hand, this script I’m playing out may be an unfortunate bastard between The Nutty Professor and One Flew Over A Cuckoo’s Nest. I can’t be sure yet, and that’s what makes this exciting for me too.
I have never done anything like this before. Well, not exactly like this anyway. I've changed careers, and I've changed the person I was because none of them were really me. But there is a sameness to all those roles I've played, and that sameness is what I'm trying to be now. I've decided to stop being a person and just be me. I want to tell stories that remind us who we are when you remove the illusion of difference that our bodies create. To encourage more people to explore their own philosophy and spirituality. I hope the first season of Bedtime Stories for grown-ups is proof enough of my passion and capability of telling such stories. You can support me over on Patreon, but I have a warning: I absolutely cannot promise you that I will produce anything at all for any money you give me. I could be a complete rascal and spend it all on Sangria and weed in Barcelona, but then, I've heard that Barcelona is an especially good place to find stuff for stories. So to be clear: I promise exactly nothing. You'll just have to trust me, like I trust myself. I understand that whether you believe in me or not is relevant for my material wing, but it is not important for my path. I'm going to travel it regardless, because it’s the path where I can remember what the dormouse said, feed my head, and find the stuff that I can weave into stories like those in "Bedtime Stories for Grown-ups”. I think these are stories humanity needs, and I'm hoping to keep it free of sponsors and advertising, since those steal the attention my listeners so kindly lend me. If any of this resonates with you, you can support my quest in many ways.
I'm introvert. Gay. An explorer. A storyteller. I'm left handed. I'm taller than the average American male, but shorter than the average Swede. I've got a deep voice that people often tell me is suited for radio, but you be the judge. My personal motto is "Be honest and do good shit. Be open, generous and connected."
Me in random numbers:
I have a Kevin Bacon number of 3. I'm currently on my eight avatar in this multiplayer creative experience that is our universe.
If you're interested in biological specifics, here's my full genome as mapped by 23andme.
Now you've got lots of information about me, but I'm afraid you're no closer to finding out who I am, than I am to finding out who you are. If you've read this far, it must mean you're really interested in getting to know me. That makes you a potentially really interesting person. Only interested persons can be interesting you see. So if you are an interesting person, I recommend you listen to my bedtime stories.
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